Hi guys, me again. As I sit here watching the Olympics and recovering I have had plenty of time for some pondering and musings. Thought I would share 🙂
One- it is amazing how hard situations bring needed perspective. My time in the hospital and having surgery made me so grateful for my health. That overshadows the disappointment with a lack of diagnosis.
Two- I am so happy I have turned the corner from shame in my infertility to pride in the battle I fight. This has made me so much more open to sharing my struggles. I like to think it has helped others suffering in silence or those unaware of how they might be hurting people who are fighting this battle.
Three- I am slowly getting my head wrapped around this possible egg donor path. I have always said and truly felt that I am not focused on my own genetic link but just want to have a family and children to love. However the next soul is meant to join our family will be a miracle and the right way. But let me tell you- searching for a donor is crazy. It brings to light the parts of me I am proud of and am looking for and really pulls to the surface a lot of questions about what matters to my husband and I and how complex the process of picking one will be. More on this when the time comes.
Four- that being said, I have already emailed our RE to tell him surgery is done and we are ready to move to our final own egg cycle when I get my next period. No rest for the motivated.
Five: Wow do I have the greatest family. My little sister came to the hospital with me because since I was going under anesthesia I had an irrational fear of death and wanted my husband to be with my son. My little sis was so great, funny and just perfect. My Mom has been this blanket of support and absolute perfection and is coming up to see me tomorrow! My husband has completely stepped up and I love hearing he and my son giggle and play while I am holed up in our room recovering. My twin sis texts and calls me right when I need to hear her. Crazy twintuition. I feel so fortunate to have the support I do and have extra admiration and love for those of you who don’t have the support you deserve and need.
Six: I find myself thinking of you all often. Those of you with miracles in your arms and bellies and those of you still waiting and hoping and pushing and fighting. I want you to know your success is mine as well and your pain I share deeply. Lots of love!
xo
myrainbowdream said:
Your positivity really inspires me! xx
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mamajo23 said:
Yours too!
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stealingnectar said:
I love your updates! I, too, have had had overwhelming gratefulness for health when things go off path. It really does help put things in perspective. I am glad you are celebrating that today! I will be eager to hear more about the donor egg process, if it comes to that, but I am hoping all hopes for you on this last bio cycle. I am so glad you are surrounded by loved ones! Thinking about you lots too! Xx
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Sondra said:
❤ Your family sounds so sweet. Perspective is a beautiful thing sometimes.
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My Perfect Breakdown said:
I am so thrilled that you are surrounded by so much love. I too had the irrational fear of death with my surgery so I get your decision to have your sister with you and your husband with your son! Thankfully neither of us died!!!!!
Also, if you ever want to chat about all the questions/thoughts that come up when you start contemplating non-genetic children, I’m always happy to be a listening ear. Although we did adoption, I assume a lot of the things you are contemplating would be similar.
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countyourselfunlucky said:
I have been thinking of you so much. I’m glad you have got through the surgery safely and are able to look forward to your upcoming treatment with such positivity. Sending love xxx
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mamajo23 said:
That makes me feel so great. Thank you so much. Lots of love to you.
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Nara said:
I don’t know how you manage to remain so positive. You are an amazing person and an inspiration to so many of us. Thinking of you as we have both been through the same surgery. I can’t imagine how frustrating it must be to realise there was nothing there, even alongside the relief. I hope your recovery is swift and I am rooting for you for this cycle! Xx
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30yr old nothing said:
❤ ❤
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ourgreatestdesire said:
Seriously, I just love you! Hope you are all recovered!!!
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mamajo23 said:
I love you too!! Thank you ☺️
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